Getting Better.....

I am new to this blogging thing, but I do have something to say....I hope you will overlook my lack of IT experience and see through to my heart. I AM an addict to Grace....the Grace of God. That is because I am in recovery from being addicted to alcohol.....You might wonder how I could be both....Alcohol gave me "privilege" to be or do anything I wanted to do...God's grace covered me, and still does, from my stupidity and also from the judgment of others (which wasn't necessarily unjustified).
I hurt people, I hurt myself, I hurt my family, I lost jobs, I lost friends.... I made bad choices both under the influence and as a result of alcohol.....I have paid dearly...physically, spiritually, emotionally....and worse......but don't think this blog is about crying, it's about getting back up and fighting to overcome.....it's about winning after you have lost everything...and I am not talking about things....I am talking about regaining on the inside what your "ailment" has cost you.
You know, my "ailment" was alcohol...maybe yours is anger, verbal abuse, gossip, sex, co-dependency, unforgiveness, bitterness, self-reliance, judgmental spirit, hypocricy, or whatever....here's the bottom line....
We all are in recovery for something...in other words we all need deliverence from something...recovery from that one thing that keeps us from experiencing the abundant life we all were promised from God.....
Alas, we blamed Him for falling short too, didn't we. He let us down....He didn't follow through...or follow up....He went to sleep when He should have stayed awake and because of that we fell down.....SHAME ON GOD....and the truth is, He didn't have a thing to do with it. Inside we know that...we just need someone to blame...just so we can sleep at night.
I don't know where this blog is headed, but one thing I do know....God isn't at fault, He is the answer....and His overwhelming grace gives us time and opportunity to make adjustments, confessions, and corrections in our lives that lead to healthy and holy living. Thank God for new beginnings....and that happens the moment we turn back to Him. I am 50! and I am beginning all over again...and what an adventure...yes, there are still amends to make and relationships to re-build...but what an adventure...know why? The overwhelming presence of God....when you get on His path, you can't see anything else but Him...the more you see Him, the more you want Him and all else has a way of falling in to place where it is supposed to...
I will share openly my journey with you...some of you may not want to be my friends after hearing me....that's ok...you will still be mine.
If you know someone who has an addiction of any kind....show them this....I will be non-threatening, and will try to just be honest. I will take a hard look at me too...and I am sure as a result will become more....Addicted to GRACE
Thanks for reading....I will post more as I am led... hope you will stay in touch.
Richard